I miss you.

But I don't feel needed.

Good bye!

Thanks for all the lessons.

Lost Hope

I lost even the little hope I have.

The End 

Dream Interpretation

For a young woman to see an architect, fortells she will meet rebuffs in her aspirations and maneuvers to make a favorable marriage.

(c) edreaminterpretation.org

The love she have for him is raging, but his love aim to leave her hanging.

He asked: "Do you still like him?"

She answered: "You don't wake up next morning and all your feelings are gone. Of course I do, more than that... I think I love him."

Resist

You asked me to be your mrs.
     I just smiled because it will only lead me to expect because you said you want to just stay friends. I wanted to say "Yes."

You said I miss you
     I just laughed  because it will only lead me to expect because you said you want to just stay friends. I wanted to say "I miss you too."

You said "We"
    I changed it to "You" and "I" because it will only lead me to expect because you said you want to just stay friends. I wanted to say because it will only lead me to expect because you said you want to just stay friends. I wanted to believe in "Us."

I'm trying to be detached. I'm trying not to be selfish. I'm trying to be happy with or without you. I'm praying for your happiness with or without me.

But please don't blame me if I have this little hope that you'll come back with the question I long to answer with a "Yes."

xvickydizon

Because

I will give it to you
       and I choose you
           because you will appreciate it
                                          and maybe
                                                just maybe
                 you will remember how special it was
                                  and how happy you always made me feel

       no matter where you'll go
              or what the future holds us
                                   I will always
                                           always
                    remember you
                                                             US.

x vickydizon

Partners in Crime

 

The other left. The other stayed.

I left. She stayed. 

I'm older. She knows better. 
Her opinion matters to me. 
If she says "No", I say "No".
If she says "Yes", I feel great.

She was always there for me.

We fight. We make up.

She knows me more than anyone. 

We tell each other secrets. 

We lock them in a place only us knows. 

She's always hungry. I'm always hungry.
She asks for food. I eat more. 

She's happy when I'm happy. 

She's always in my team. 

She helps me out before I even ask for it. 

She sends me message even when it doesn't make sense.
She calls me when she feels giddy and excited.
She updates me.
She asks for my help. 

She's there. I am here. 8762 km away.

But she makes me feel like I never left.

I miss her. 

I miss her so much. 

I miss her that I'm crying.

I miss her more than anyone. 

I miss you Zarrin.

xvickydizon

Teen Quiz

(c) twitter

1. Vicky
2. 5'2" ft.
3. 101.41 lbs.
4. 21
5. September 17
6. Mitzell
7. David
8. None
9. Yes
10. Burger
11.  "About Christianity hehe"(Sent to: Sana H., 21:10, 5 May 2016) 
12. 10 months
13. 2%
14. Dark Brown
15. Books
16. I Do - Colbie Caillat
17. None - maybe dog?
18. Lucky - Jason Mraz
19. No
20. Visit Canada
21. First Shrine Visits 
22. Israel
23. Dogs
24. 23. Before 25
25. Science
26.  Second X
27. To what?
28. Would punching walls count?
29. Family! and hopefully soon to be family! (hehehehehe)
30. Yes!
31. Black
32. Single - getting to know someone (I guess?)
33. I Do - Colbie Caillat
34. Unnoticed change
35. No
36. Backbiting
37. Big Bang Theory
38. Harry Potter
39. Everyday  - David Levithan
40. Takoyaki
41. Confidence
42. Virgo
43. Sison
44. Talk about farts
45. 3
46. Hazel Maryam, Bien Charmaine Marie, Zarrin-Taj
47. Tennis, Volleyball, Basketball - any sports!
48. Zarrin
49. Grade school - I tried to kick the ball but my shoe flew and  went to the roof
50. Environmentalist

x vickydizon
 

Second Turkish Coffee

"You're moving - flat." 

I already moved.

"You'll go on a trip."

I want to. I plan to.

"Someone is getting married in your family."

My sister got married today.

"You're planning to buy or get something."

I asked someone to buy me a phone and hopefully have it by Friday.

"There is something you want to decide but you can't decide right now, you need more time but it's okay. There's no rush."

Yes. I'm thinking about extension, and trying to know someone better.

"There's three people bringing packages (each of them) for you. They are not close family or relative to you."
I have no idea.

"Two people will visit you."

Mom and grandma planning! Wohoo!!!

"Do you like ice cream?"
O.O
"You love ice cream. You will buy three at once. You will even have an ice cream party!"
YES. I LOVE ICE CREAM!

"You will move. Again."

Where?

"U.S."

smile* wink* hopefully!

x vickydizon 08052016

Persian Moms

Negin's mom: She pioneered in the Philippines. We always have a lot to talk about. I can see how much she misses the country, and how she loved everything about it. She said there's a lot of similar culture with Persians. She's both a mom and a friend.

Buzurg's mom: She is so sweet. She had  a lot of stories to tell, and she is very caring. She will always be the caring and loving mother and you'll never grow old. 

Faranak's mom: She remembered my name, when she kept on forgetting others' name. She's sweet. She patiently waits.

Pedram and Ramtin's mom: Pedram's mom love Filipinos as well, and she said Filipinos have the purest, kindest heart. I see my two older sisters in them. They are very sweet and very close. They are funny. They are best friends! You will age but they will never grow old.

x vickydizon

Turkish Coffee

image of the bride and the groom

Wedding - bride and groom dancing.

I've been thing a lot about wedding, (mine hopefully and my sister's).

Vacation outside Israel but not right now.

I'm trying to fill out a visa form, hoping I could visit Canada. 

There's a woman in your family that is thinking about you and praying for you. She is planning to visit you but she is currently collecting money, trying to find ways to be able to come.

My mom is actually planning to come visit and have been emailing me a lot about how she misses me and she's  trying to get money to be able to visit.

You're going to move, maybe from one flat to another.

I moved from one flat to another, but I'm hoping it means I'll move somewhere for good.

          

There's a subject in your mind that you're having second thoughts. You are not sure what you want to do.

I have been thinking a lot about my relationship with someone, if we could make it work, if I should be strong or just give up...

After 7-8 months, something will happen that will make a little change in your life.

and after 8 months, I'm going to end my service - so there will really be something that will happen.

~

First Reaction:

 Scared. It's all true and currently happening, my thoughts have been in all of those subjects.

x vickydizon 050516

All I Can Do

I will
  wait
for you
       'till
  there's
    nothing
 left
   in me


vickydizon

I Lied

I lied when I said I don't regret anything.

I regret that one thing.
           at   that one night at the beach.
              at that cloudy evening.
           at     that night when we saw hundreds of images.
               at   that night you held my hand.
      at    that one night we we're sitting at those big rocks.

   I regret that I looked away.
      I regret that I didn't kiss you.

That could've been the perfect first kiss.
  
x vickydizon

I miss you

like I miss home.

vickydizon

A dream I dreamed

You said "I love you too."

vickydizon

When I See You Again

I want to be there when you ask me to come

I want to make you soup like how you always did
I want to take care of you even if you're not sick

I want to rub your forehead when you're tired

I want to see you drift to sleep
I want to sleep with the sound of your snore

I want to see you first thing in the morning

I want you to wake up while I prepare the breakfast

I want you to come home with the smell of the dinner

because I love you.

vickydizon

Stay

The 80/20 Rule of Relationship

The most important relationship advice you'll get.

Kayley Nugent

If you don’t know what the 80/20 rule is, you've already made your first mistake. This rule has made me revaluate all the relationships I have been in, as well as the ones I've considered beginning.

We, as humans, are always looking for the next best thing because as we all know, the grass is always greener on the other side, right? Wrong. This is what the 80/20 rule teaches you. Generally, when in a relationship you get about 80 percent of what you want. This sounds pretty good because it's such a high percentage. However, we are also craving that other 20 percent. We fight over it, break up over it and complain about it, because as we already went over, we always want what we can’t have.

Say your boyfriend or girlfriend is SO great—loyal, attentive, supportive, and caring. However, they aren’t as social as you. You always want to go out with friends, go to parties and hang in groups but they would rather hang out at home or Netflix and chill (and actually watch Netflix and actually chill). Instead of focusing on the 80 percent of things you want and are actually receiving, you focus on the 20 percent that shows your significant other being antisocial.

Then comes the day you meet your 20 percent. They’re outgoing, always up to hang out, and never turns down an opportunity to party. They seem perfect. They are that 20 percent you are missing. So what do you do? You naturally think this person is a better match for you and so you break up with your current significant other for this person.

This all seems perfect, now you have everything you want, right? Nope. You will soon realize even though you have that 20 percent, you ONLY have 20 percent. You no longer are getting 80 percent of what you want because you left that for the single aspect that you were missing to begin with.

The 20 percent is dangled in front of your face looking like the ideal option, but you forget when you go after the one thing you were missing, you lose everything you had. You give up 80 percent happiness for only 20 percent. You gave up a caring, respectful, amazing partner for an obnoxious, drunk, party animal because it seemed like everything you wanted at the time.

This rule may seem obvious, but next time you want to complain about your boyfriend or girlfriend, I bet you’ll think twice and remember the 80 percent that you get every day. Forget about the 20 percent that's probably something insignificant anyway.

Appreciate your loved one and always let them know it. Don’t get caught yearning over 20 percent.

Source: http://theodysseyonline.com/fairfield/80-20-rule-relationships/191895

Rain

I asked someone, What is your favorite season? But it made me ask myself the same question, we only have two seasons. I never liked summer, and rain always make me sad.

Rain makes me want to cry. All the time.

I lost my uncle, and it rained during the funeral.

I lost my first love while it was raining.

It rained after someone broke my trust.

It rained when I was saying goodbye to someone dear to me.

The rain poured when I left home.

And it's raining again.

I tried to appreciate it so I walked, hugged it like I was saying goodbye.

I want to say goodbye to the sadness that rain brings me.

I want to love the rain.

I want to collect happy memories with the rain.

vickydizon

When it's already a 'No'

But you still hope.

vickydizon

Now

I tried so hard to be detached.
To be not affected with my own selfish feelings.
To not accept my own selfish reasoning.
To not be involved with anyone.
To not want to be involved in everything.
To be away from people who can hurt me.

I've been running away, it was getting easier and easier,

but I took the road I was doubtful about...

I know why I'm doubting, but I continued, I run faster...

and it brought me back to the start.

Now, I want to run away again.

vickydizon