City Lights

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City lights in Manila. I have to start saying "Goodbye". I feel like not coming back. But I wish I have enough reasons to come back.

vickydizon

To: David

Cheers to our very first picture together. :)

I have known you for exactly 7 years and 8 months now.

2007

I knew your name. I was teasing you with one of my closest friend. I was teasing you "gay". You asked me to be your buddy on our first field trip in high school. You became someone's young love affair. We never became friends.

2008

We became friends. You said "I love you", I thought you were kidding. You said you like me, I didn't care. Someone liked you. I didn't like her. I told everyone you were my boyfriend. I was kidding around. No one believed. 

2009

We became closer. You were always there on my weakest points. You were never leaving my side. People got confused. They asked what is going on with us. I said were friends. You said we're not. You said you were serious. I laughed. But I became your girlfriend. You never held my hand. I was hoping you would. Sometimes you did, when no one is watching. Our secret. You kissed me on my cheeks. I was too young. I cried. We were so happy. Really happy. But you broke up with me. I cried. You were watching me. You promised you will not find a girl until we graduate college. I made the same promise.

2010

You were no longer my boyfriend. You were looking away whenever our eyes would meet. I cornered you. Our eyes met. We have decided to move on. We moved on. We went back to being friends. Great friendship was built. You became closer to me than we expected.  No one thought we broke up. Everyone is still waiting for the moment they would see us held each others' hand. We never did.

2011

You became my bestfriend like I became your bestfriend. We never left each others' side. You were always there for me. "You're exceptional. You redeemed me from silence." you said. (Wait, uhhh I'm crying.) We were so exclusive for each other. We learned how to dream. We exchanged dreams. We were talking about our soon to be separate lives after we graduate high school. We were so afraid to move on without each other. But we had no choice.

2012

I went to my own university, you went to yours. We met new friends. We met new people. But we always try to find time for each other. We always try to see each other to at least go home together. I met a guy. I broke my promise. I was sorry. You accepted my apology. You still never left my side. You said no one will ever have my spot in your heart. You said I will always be your bestfriend. You were always my bestfriend and I never allowed anyone to change that fact.

2013 

We broke up. You were there. You were busy but you were there. You never ended the call until I finish ranting. You said I didn't deserve that. You said he didn't deserve me. I cried. You were there. I didn't really thought that it would come a day when I can rant everything to you including the guys I will meet, knowing that aside from being my bestfriend, you were also my ex-boyfriend. Time flies. I was busy. You were busy. Months passed without us exchanging messages. But I know, you will always be there.

2014

You were my date on Valentine's day. You were the first person I dated on a Valentine's day. That was a secret. We never told anyone about it unless they ask. That was a casual date. A catch-up date for not seeing each other for long. We had a buffet dinner somewhere. We talked about a lot of things. You told me nothing's changed, You and I are still bestfriends. I was so happy. Months and days passed we don't get to see each other. We randomly receives messages from each other saying "I miss you." and "I love you." I miss you. A lot.

  There is a possibility that three months from now, I will leave this place, I will leave everything behind, I will leave you and everyone who is important for me. And if that moment will arrive, I still want to be your best friend. I still want to be on my special spot in your heart. If I leave, I want you to remember every moments we've had, including those moments when I cry or when we hurt each other. I know, communication will never be a problem anymore because of the technology we have. But the physical interaction... I will miss your silly jokes. I will miss your wide smile. I will miss everything about you that no one else can give me anywhere else. I will miss you and I will forever, if forever exists, love you.

vickydizon